Thursday, December 24, 2009
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i deserved silent treatment.
worthless;useless;redundant!
3 words speaks everything.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to myself!! :DThanks one and all for the birthday wishings!!!Pardon me for not naming it out one by one cos there's quite a number.Thanks Cas, Cor, Em, Hs, Jo & LiRu for the birthday surprise thou there were loopholes.Seriously you may think that it's not really a surprise but to me, it is.I witnessed the effort put in for the celebration.Thanks lots!!You people really make my day!!Special thanks to ♥♥♥.You gave me the best present!!It's the most wonderful present that i've received!!Thanks loads dearest!! (L)---Unhappy things did happened today.
I teared.
I couldn't help thou i know i shouldn't be crying.
Wadever izzit, i really detest the presence.---Anyway, i still have to thank this awesome bunch of people for cheering me up and making my day bright ahead!!THANKS TO CASANDRA TAN, CORDELIA, EMILY, HUISHAN, JOANNE, LIRU!!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Starting to hate myself more and more. :(
Recently i'm always paranoid with myself and i've mood swing very very often.
Maybe i'm just wasting too much time thinking about nonsense.
Some things appeared and it really traumatize me that i kept myself thinking about it.
Thou i was assured that nothing will happened but still, i'm very very afraid deep down.
Wild tots kept running inside my mind.
It's really torturing.
I was told.
She isn't worth the time and effort that i spent on her.
I felt hurt, really really hurt.
Wadever that happens, i've never wanted to leave her alone.
Somehow she's trying to push me away, idk why. :(
Wadever is it.
I shall be a little thick skin!
I'm going to say this now.
Wadever that happens, i wouldn't leave you at all.
If you choose to push me aside, i've got nothing to say.
I will do as said BUT i will always be there.
Anything that happened please say!!
Seeing you like that it hurts alot! :'(
Invisible but still i'm there always!!
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Camp Challenge.
Back for Camp Challenge.
Nothing much but it was a fun and fulfilling experience.
Thanks one and all for the help and support.
Congrats to GM for getting 3rd in Gadgets as well as Patrol Identity.
2nd in Inter-patrol Competition.
Well Done!!
Your hard work paid off!! :D
Nothing much to update.
Or rather not in the mood?
Bye.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Surge of feeling.
A surge of feeling running over me.
Mixed & Confused.
I kept myself thinking.
Izzit really worth??
I really dunno.
Mind keep telling me to giving up.
Somehow sth strong told me to persist on.
Which one should i listen to?
I really got no idea.
Gloomy sky falling down.
I need directions.
Aimlessly wondering could be the best.
Torture coming in itz way.
Nothing's going to change anymore.
No more companions; no more friends even.
Everything will just shift in silence.
Shift to the cruel world of reality.
Bye.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Changed.
The feeling told me earlier on but i rejected the knowing.
Now things are under the sun; bright and open.
No fray of lighting is streaming in.
The night took me away thinking.
No salvage, no companion thru it.
I was left alone, in the lonely night.
I sense the fear outside.
I wouldn't force.
Remaining the way as it is, i accept.
Thanks for the time.
Thanks for everything.
No more companion.
Normality.
Numbness is the next thing that comes.
End of the world.
Wonders.
Things are changing.
I've just got to accept the fact.
If it repeats, i'm not going to rant nor pester.
I just wonder my ability to really pull thru??
I doubt i have it.
If you thinks that i'm what you think, i shall just accept it.
Simple reason being i don wann unhappy things to happen.
I will just take it as i'm.
All i can say now is i wouldn't be one now nor in the future.
Itz not a fun thing to do.
It would just worsen r/s with people.
I wouldn't even take that a risk.
BUT, if you think i'm, i will accept the fact.
I will just keep quiet den.
Sorry if i sound stern or rude.
Is just that i'm really not one that's why i'm stating.
I wouldn't force; i wouldn't rant.
I will just accept wadever that comes in the way.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Hidden agenda??
Headed to GM for Camp Challenge training.
Practically crapped there with cas most of the time.
Ended at ard 5 plus and headed to east point mall.
Accompanied hs to collect her specs while cas,cor,emily,jo,nat.s queued for Starbucks coffee FOC.
When backed, was told that we have to queue from the start again so ended up sharing as queue was long.
Headed to tamp.
Now, cor and hs queue for coffee @ Starbucks FOC while emily,jo,nat.s and me went round looking for watches.
Couldn't find.
Maybe heading to Bugis tmr to look for it.
Headed for dinner.
Things happened.
Changed my mood towards dinner.
It totally sucks.
Nevertheless, i still have to thank cas,cor,emily,hs,jo&nat.s for the company today!!
Loves it lots!!
That's pretty much today.
P.S. I'm a bad influence!! Please stay far far away from me!! If not you'll turn bad!!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
BBQ GANG!!!
With this awesome group of people, i spent 2D1N just opp OCH!! :PP
Initial feeling of the rod, i tot it was going to be bored, indeed it was!
The fun only started when me,cas,jo and hs starting fire for the bbq pit.!!
Damn the rain and sun lor.
Initially slight drizzle but suddenly the sun damn damn strong!
Everyone near got burnt and roasted. @.@
Nvm the heat and all, the BBQ GANG started having fun there.
By the time when all the food were bbq-ed, nothing was left for us except bee hoon, chicken and watermelon.
Had not much feeling to eat, headed back to the pit and bbq marshmallows,chat and camwhore! :DD
Drizzling so headed to room.
Slacked and talked about camp challenge things.
Bathed;Slacked;Chatted.
Once everyone was done with their things, it was MOVIE MARATHON!!!
Paranormal activity followed by Orphan.
While the rest watch PA, me and hs kept having evil laughter!!
Orphan was a damn nice yet cruel show. :x
Slept;Woke up.
Cleared the chalet.
Bused to tamp.
Simei with hs. (she watch movie, i sleep. zzz)
Home Sweet Home.
I think without the BBQ GANG, i doubt i would even enjoy my stay there. Somehow they are the magical little ones that make my day everytime when i'm with them! I never fail to laugh with those people around! Even with unhappy things going on, meeting them will definitely cheer me up. Thanks people!!! You people rock my life! :DD
LOVES BBQ GANG TO THE MAX!!! :DDDDDD
