Monday, November 30, 2009
Happy Birthday HuiShan.!
Long but fun day out! Celebrated HuiShan's birthday in her sch bbq-ing!! hahas! Met with cas, jo and emily ard 11.30am to get the food for bbq. Somehow time fly when you're with a group of great people! Within a blink it was around 1pm when we're done buying the food. Bought cake and rushed back. Prepared the things needed and did axemanship!! LOLS!@@Time for jo and cor to go fetch huishan at mrt so we started 'clearing' to prevent suspicion.When they reached school and there comes the SURPRISED!!!! Party poppers all flew near huishan. (she was really surprised i guess thou she sense sth fishy??)Started on with food and drinks. Talked. Cake time. (burnt)Sang birthday song and present the presents. Slacked. Clearing time. Once done, slacked again. Home Sweet Home!ONCE AGAIN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUISHAN!! HAVE FUN 'UTILIZING' YOUR PRESENTS YEAH! :DDThings happened and it changed the mood of mine. Totally gone!! No sense of belonging. No sense of living. I really felt like leaving when it happened!! :'(
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Past.
Finally i'm back from BTC!! Broke down half way thru BTC but i kept quiet.
Too many things happened. I was at the loss of words. More injuries more troubles. Thru'out the camp, i wasn't enjoying myself. Yet to recover from fever and it got worse. Rendered helping hand and was given shitty treatments. Do i really deserve it?? Have i really took a wrong step?? I wondered thru'out the sleepless night. Izzit because of the status that i received those kind of treatments?? Really, i'm getting sick and tired of everything. More injuries discovered in the midst of helping.
However consider myself lucky. I've a companion that was accompanying me thru'out. Without her, i doubt i was able to pull myself thru'. I felt bad. Very very bad!! I kept pouring all my rantings to her. :(((
Seriously, thanks lots for standing by me when i really needed even thou i didn't really say wad happened. You pulled me thru! Thanks a million!! Loves!! <33
Tag Replies22 Nov 09, 23:23
EMILY: okay. then i man man lai. then when i not lazy i will do it. really. when i not lazy.
JingFang: anything lah. take as much time as possible! also no rush!! :DD
23 Nov 09, 10:02
dionis: thanks! (:
JingFang: welcome!! :)
23 Nov 09, 16:13
cordelia: don need say sorry to me :) but hor i still feel sad espically the class problem it too suden :(
JingFang: take things in stride yeah. don rush yourself! wadever izzit, i'm sure your friends will standby you. same for me too. Cheer up kk!! :DD
NATALIE: HELLO! hahaha.THANKYOU TOO LA FFA:D xin ku ni le!
JingFang: Hello!!! FA!! I waiting for your service during ROD ah! :PPP
23 Nov 09, 19:31
Huishan.: Read & Thanks!
JingFang: Kk!! Thanks to you too :DD
24 Nov 09, 09:11
Jaywhy.: Yes thankyou so much for things that you've done and helped me. thankyou thankyou so much (:
JingFang: okok. don have to thank me so many times in a tag lah. zzz. now that itz over, you can relax!! Enjoy your hols yeah! :DD
25 Nov 09, 15:47
JOY(: you still want my pillow?=p
JingFang: Sorry for wad i did that day :(( Of course!! Itz a nice pillow!! :DD
25 Nov 09, 16:00
amanda:): hiie^.^
JingFang: hello!! take care yeah!! :DD
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Short messages of heart-felt notes.
Read huishan's blog and it inspired me to do the same thing. (sorry if you think i plagiarize.:x)Special Mentions:Jean(CC): You did your part. You did it well enuf as a beginner. Definitely there are more things to be learn. Do not rush yourself! It takes time to learn. I didn't turn leader within a night. It took me 7 years and still counting to learn to be a leader. Even for now, i don call myself one. Don get stress up yeah. Just give your best for everything that you're asked to do. Anything you can always ring me up for help. Like wad i told you last year after NDP'08, i'm 24/7 on. Cheers :DDJoanne(PL,AQM,CampChallenge): You're the one that doesn't need to rmb any whistle signals. Nevertheless it also means that you've a heavy duty on your shoulder. Seriously i have to give you my salute! I doubt i would be able to tank all this back then when i was in Sec 2. Your effort is laudable. As for campfire, you really don't have to worry. It's alright. Everyone make mistakes and we learn. I now take the chance to apologise if i was stern during the campfire debrief. I'M SORRY!! :( A potential leader in indeed in the midst of growing. Do not give up yeah! Keep on striving! All the best! Congrats on getting into a class of your wish! Study hard!! Loves!! :DDCordelia(AQA): The role as an AFA is definitely not an easy task. You managed it well or even better. I understand certain things that you've faced with your patrol members mainly communications wise. A piece of advice - don not rush. Communication barrier is sth that affects everyone. Time is require to really solve it. It's not your fault ok. I do understand that you feel sad. Cheer up yeah. Anything you can always ring me up if you need someone to talk to. Keep striving towards your goals yeah! I'm sure you can achieve it one day! All the best!! Loves!! :DDHuiShan(PL): You're the one i spotted at the beginning of the camp. Certainly it seems we aren't able to hide it thru. I spotted you; you spotted me likewise. I understand the stress. I've been thru' that process. The initial part is always the hardest. It really takes time to learn to lead. Like wad i told jean, i don call myself a leader even till now. So there's no rush. Everyone gets to learn. One point to note, you have to learn to speak out about the stress and all. Speaking out is the best way to learn. It may be hard but do give it a try. No rush thou. Wadever izzit, my phone is always on for 24/7. Just ring me up anytime if there's a need to disregard the time and all. Help will definitely be rendered. So rmb don stress yourself up yeah!! All the best! Congrats on getting into a class of your wish! Study hard!! Loves!! :DDJean,Joanne,Cordelia,HuiShan,Gabrielle,Vivian,Emily,LiRu as well as camp staffs! I hereby take that chance once again to thank everyone of you for the help and support provided!! Really without it, i doubt i would be able to survive thru' the camp. To those that i was mad with for some reasons, I sincerely apologise for my wrongdoings. I shouldn't have rant it out at you people. I'M REALLY REALLY SORRY!! :(
Saturday, November 21, 2009
GM Company Camp.!
Away from 17th to 21st Nov for GM Company Camp.
Overall was fun. Definitely it was tiring. Deprived of sleep. LOLS.
Too many things happened. Unable to describe. Its just too much. Scolding guides for not being on task, you yourself repeated the same mistake. Its totally speechless. During COH, you wanted everyone to talk. I pointed out certain things you weren't happy. End up, you indirectly arrowed me in a way so that you wouldn't embarrassed me in front of the guides. The action was totally wrong. You arrowed me a bunch of nonsense. I was just supposed to be a facilitator and yet it turned out that i was the 'CC' or rather the 'Guider'. Somehow i seriously think you should reckon you actions. Failing your task as a guider, do you really deserve the position as a chairman of the PNA committee?? I wondered alot alot.!!
Nevertheless, i have to thank that few that really allowed me to pull myself thru' this camp!
Extremely thankful to Gabrielle, Vivian, HuiShan, Joanne, Cordelia, Emily as well as the camp staffs!! Without you guys, i doubt i was able to pull thru the 5 days of face to face.
THANKS A MILLION!! Rest well and take lots of care.
To those going for Camp Challenge, see you during Camp Challenge as well as the pre-camp trainings.
Byebye.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Bias-ness is obvious!
Things happened. Was happy all the way till the phone called. You couldn't understand the rationale behind the actions, you gotten someone else to nag at me? If you nagged it didn't work, what more makes you think that an outsider's nagging will work out?? Your son now is working, immediately your bias-ness revealed! Immediately you complained without fail to people saying that i'm not working wadever nonsense! Get the fact right before you do that?? Recalling back then, i had never taken a single cent from you!! You gave me on your own accord. I didn't ask. Only at times when i really needed helped den i opened my mouth and ask from you yet you aren't happy??!! All the money that i spent are my own savings and earnings. Even my own basic necessities are bought myself. Yet you nv sense/see a thing? You just blindly tell people that i'm always the one lazing around at fault. I really don get it!! Bro gotten a job yet he still ask money from you, you never complain. Definitely it shows that you're bias towards him!! I DON CARE ABOUT THAT. Just that i think this time, you're too overboard. There's a limit to everyone's tolerance!. Get the fact right before you act on. I'm leaving the sentence to you. It may be harsh but i'm sorry ! I have to!
THE HOUSE YOU PROVIDE ISN'T A HOME FOR ME TO STAY. IS JUST AN SHELTHER FOR ME TO REST. NO WARMTH NO FEELING!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Hectic Week.
It was really a busy hectic week with many many things ongoing. Rushed from place to place day after day.
Weekend ended up in HQ for PLTC. Comparing to Camp Training, it wasn't really that fun but still, i enjoyed! With the bunch of YAs there, we had fun ourselves. Slacked;played;eat;sing;crap;etc....
After all its not really that hectic. More hectic ones are coming on the way esp from next week onward.
Tag replies huihui: Hahahhaaas i see i see :)
JingFang: yeah! no life people. you go esther's blog jiu know wad i mean liao. :)
Huishan.: oooouhh. ppl spam jus ignore can liao luhh. :)
JingFang: yeah! this one is super no life. cant even be bothered. hahas.
Yuri: hello ! thanks for everything during camp yeah ? missed you loads. was really happy to see you again. (:
JingFang: hello!! i also nv do anything much?? miss ya too :DD
Yuri: oh yes, AHMA NG! don't bother about that person. only add on to your wrinkles haha. jkjk stay happy !
JingFang:AHMA???!!@#$%^&% hahas! no bother lah. that person no life only. i never even fret about it. I'm always happy. :DD
Monday, November 2, 2009
To THAT JIA that bitched in esther's blog!!
If you think you're having a happy and meaningful life out there, stop bitching in people's blog den. By doing that, it only shows that you're just too bored of life. Bored till you've to start commenting about people's spouse which TOTALLY HAS NONE OF YOUR CONCERN.!!
Get the fact right before you start to comment. Be it Esther's husband or baby, both aren't even related to you. Or rather Esther don even know you at all in the 1st place!! Being an anonymous person, you commented about people's family. THINK BACK!! IF SOMEONE WERE TO DO IT TO UR FAMILY MEMBERS, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL!!
Whatever that goes on is totally none of your concern. You seems pretty no life or izzit cos your friends have ditched on you resulting in you being bored. Thus ending up bitching about people's home affair in their blog??!!!!!
Since you dragged my cousin and niece into the picture, IT CAUGHT ME FUMING !!!!! You can come bitching at my blog and you'll see wad you'll get! I welcome you with open hands!! & please!! When you tag, leave ur name and NOT YOUR INITIALS!! I have too many friends with the initial 'JIA' as well!! You having to use the initial and tag bad about people, it's a total disgrace to that name!!
2 choice out. 1st - Either you get lost and get a life out there.
2nd - If not, Place your 'BIG NAME' & contact number down if you really wants a confrontation for some no reasons or stupid lame pork reason!!. :x
Companion or Friend??
I wondered,
Do i have more of companions or friends.??
Different meaning to it.
Companion is one that you can confide in.
Friend is one that plagiarize company.
Sometimes it's hard to tell.
Definitely i would yearn for more companion; true companion.
Somehow it's hard to find.
One in a every ten??
Not an easy task.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Speechless.
Things happened but i kept silence.
Treated the way i wasn't supposed to be.
Having intentions to ignore but i couldn't cos of some reasons.
Discussions don seem like discussions.
More like instructions.
Feel like washing my hands of it.
I'm tired.
Really really tired.
Retiring to reality is far too hard.!
