Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Zipped.
Shutting myself out, i feel lost. I can't help. :( Things reached the stage whereby i can't even voice it out. Found out certain things, i can't bring myself to say it out. I decided to keep things to myself, it may be a form of silent torture to myself but i guess is the best way out.
The realization of certain things make me dumbfounded. I'm lost. Totally lost in a foreign world. The darkness is scary. The cold freeze me. The pain hounds me wherever i go. I need to voice out, but i can't.
I failed myself every single thing. Numbing is the best way out but still, too long numbness will make you immune that you don even sense the numbness. I need reliever! I need to clear my lungs!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.!!! This shows how useless and redundant i am!!
It totally sucks!!