Monday, October 19, 2009
Feelings.
I still sense the fear in me.
Thou as said, the air is clear; the breathing is normal.
Still, i fear.
I really doubt my ability to distraction of my attention.
Everything was prefectly normal before retiring to bed.
Somehow, lying on bed makes me recall every thing.
Every single moment.
Thou i was assured that nothing will happen, but still i fear.
Will time really numb me??
Will sinning really make me feel better??
I kept myself wondering through the entire night.
I couldn't sleep.
Mind was filled with nasty thoughts.
I promised no foolish acts but i have the feeling of acting it.
I really wonder my ability; my ability of forgiving myself for the sinful act.
I feel emptiness; extremely empty.